To The Darling Kimmy Of My Heart

A Brunch Of Small Rose Took By Me 11.03.2008

Have i ever oved,missed and cared someone

and felt

terrible

because i think tat she doesn't miss me and love me did she?

Loving,missing and caring someone is a terrible

but at the

same time,sweet feeling.

I will be sitting around

wondering if i

meant

anything to her.

Thinking if she ever cares

about me.

Rushing to the phone once it

rings hoping that it's

her.

Looking out of the window

hoping that

she will

surprise me by appearing

outside my house.

Sitting in front of the

television but

thinking of

her

missing the final episode of

my

favourite show.

Laying on my bed,

thinking of the last

time or the last night we sms and on the phone together.

Thinking of how nice it will be

to sit under the stars

again, talking about

everything, share our dreams,

plans, future.

Logging on to the internet

hoping to see

her online.

When i realise that she

isn't online or sms me

and did not return on my page and phone inbox,

i will start worrying

if she is okay.

Loving,missing and caring someone is a way of

growing up i

guess.

It exposes me to loneliness.

It teaches me how to cope with

being

lonely and let me

know that there is actually a

feeling

known asemptiness.

Sometimes it feels good to

love,miss and care someone.
I know that i really love her ,missing her ,care her and

i indulge

in the

feeling of loving, missing and caring for

her.

But loving,missing and caring someone and not
knowing if she is feeling the same is terrible.

I feel as if i are being left

alone.

So if i miss and care someone,i'll tell

her and

let her know.

At the same time, ask if she

miss ,care and love me.

Don't let the feeling of

Missing,caring and loving someone

become

jealousy or paranoid.
If me are the one being loved,

missed ,cared ,loved

and her know it,
if I miss ,care ,and love her ,

I'll tell her.

I'll tell myself don't let her wait.

SO MY DARLING KIMMY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!