This Post Is For You, For One Of The Gal I Loving Right Now!

if i could, i would give you the world, just to see you smile,
if i could, i would do anything, to make this worth while,
if i could i would be anywhere near you, even if i had to run a million miles.
because i was in the dark when i was waiting for someone,
you held a candle en lighting your face telling me to hold on,
slowly taking my trembling hands, promising to take all my fears,
you came holding me, wiping away my tears.

the sky was Grey, like the color of your eyes,
you whispered softly, when tomorrow comes and the sun shines,
I'd still be here right by your side,
I'm going to make you my forever, I'm going to make you mine.

and you touched me so light,
I was strucked by your sight,
when you held me so tight,
i took it all in with all of my might.

you are my strength to everything,
my voice when i want to sing,
my journey to my destiny,
and my everything to life when I seek.

you sang to me saying,
I'll be waiting for you,
deep inside of me,
I am craving for you.
And I'll be the one to love you more,
giving you just everything you need.
I'll be at the end of the earth for you

I'll be calling for you,
I'll be the air that you breath,
I'll be your wings to fly,
I'll give my all to keep you alive.

What Should I Do?

don't walk away, don't slip away,
I'm trying to capture the image,
but it's starting to fade,
it's not enough for you to stay,
with opened doors and too many ways.

and once your gone you're never coming back,
you loved me once, now that's a fact,
your empty presence hits me like a heart attack,
and I'm still not over you, at least, not yet,
how could you leave, just like that.

i unlocked the doors,
walked through a house that used to be our home,
your clothes, your scent, our memories were scattered on the floor,
and the urge i had to resist, was much too more.
just like my heart on a string, our photos hung on the walls.

you were all i had, so close, so near,
only yesterday you were standing here.
as you spoke, you spoke so clear,
yet the melody is still ringing in my ear,
now I'm only left with my tears.


and i cried till 10:50 AM

It's my Emotion when i alone!!

It's totally about me of my Emotion.
I like to...
Starring into the mirror, Focus blurred, Coming undone Faces starring back at me, Screaming, Streaming, Rain falling, Trails in front of me, Totally insane Bottle of pills, Self medicating, Face changing, Feeling of solitude, Becoming numb, Drainage
Misusing, Still abusing, Pacing, Thoughts racing, Hearing voices in my head, Telling me what to do, Feeling insane, Can't sleep I need help, Mentally ill, Sickened
Empty inside, Bleeding, My head exploding, Fucked up, Looking through sad eyes
Always hopeless, Just wanting to belong, Casting away, Fear subsiding, Disappearing
The way I choose to be gets darker everyday Scared of myself, Waiting to be free
Life is impossible, Thoughts of suicide...Won't understand, Can't erase them, Disappointment, I am falling and crawling, Won't be okay Insecure thoughts, Feeling ugly, The hole I dug for myself I believe my own lies, Hateful, Deception Hidden from the world, Crushing, Snorting, Burning, Pouring out my insides, No trust left, Forsaken me, I am the problem, I am the problems Blood on the walls,fucked up, Sick of life, My pain will never end, As I waste away, Killing my insides
Too many excuses, All I lived for was to be loved, Now I'm coming undone
Feeling worthless, Getting more hopeless, and restless, The lies, My sickness, Weakened, Self hatred, Running away from my past, Erasing memories Distain, Wasting my time, In my mind it lye’s, Never perfect, Disarray, I don't care!
Never to be loved, My pain kills, This is how it feels Depression, Nobody cares, Blown away, Sick of this, Your oblivious, Never caring, Seeing death, Fore staking, My only cure, This I am sure, Mentally sick, Trying to stay awake I hate myself, Delirious I am not like you, I will never be like you, Taken for granted, Unspoken, and broken,
Becoming unbearable, Wanting to die, Nightmares taking over my thoughts
Never to be free.....Only I can see...What’s to become of me. Hope u guys liked it.