The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
When you are reading this letter, Ya I’m far away from you.
As many things I wish I didn't do
I really miss those wonderful moments that we've spent together in MSN,SMS and TALK ON THE PHONE every single day and night.
But i continue learning
Having you in my life is best thing that has happened to me
I never meant to do those things to you
Happy, all good things have come to good way
And so i have to say I LOVE YOU!!
I know my actions were harsh on sometimes when im down
That i just want you to know
But i had no choice, it was the only thing i could do

I found the reason for me
I didn't want you to suffer because of me
To change who i used to be
I want you to become stronger
A reason to start over new
I want you to live life to the fullest
And the reason is you
I want you to see what that i could not

I'm sorry that i hurt you sometimes
I hope that you'll be able to forgive me and move on
It's something i must live with everyday
I wish you all the best in life when you be with me
And all the pain i put you through
I pray that i got the chance to love you everyday and every minutes
I wish that i could take it all away
And i will love you as mush as i do.
And be the one who catches all your tears
I pray for the blissful that i can marriage you and give you all the happiness around you
That's why i need you to hear
I pray for I’ll give our children happiness and everything they wan

I found the reason to show
Thanks for giving me the best time of my life
A side of me you didn't know
Thanks for showing me what love is all about
A reason for all that i'll do
I'll never forget you through eternity
And the reason is YOU
I LOVE YOU BB
(Tammy Lum Phui San)








Lyrics are adapted from the "The Reason - simple plan"
Modify by .:Gavin Chan:.

Flight Ticket To Melbourne

I've bought my flight ticket! Hence, a new ticker yo!

=D =D

Will update more tonight.

* 2am update*

Just got back after a super duper filling meal at Tony Roma's with chong wei and Samuel. Ate until my stomach felt like it's gonna burst any minute.


My Pina Colada mm mmmmmm.


We had the Combo Dinner.


Came with their famous ribs which were so tender and tasty, Grilled Shrimps which I guess they used Tiger Prawns because they tasted exactly as fresh as those Tiger Prawns I used to cook in Melbourne, Baked Potato which was quite nice, and the Corn in Cob omfg the BEST corn I've ever eaten!


Looks like there's not much to eat from but you'd be surprised!

Ok time for my ticket story. Such a dramatic day!

I initially checked the prices online. Then I went to this travel agent at Kedah and decided to get my tickets there and I can pay and get my tickets right away instead of credit card hassle since the price was almost the same anyway.

This morning I drove up to the place and after telling the lady the dates and all, she told me the price is RM 1600++.

I was like WTF??? And I asked her why so cheap! Actually I wasn't even bothered to know why all I wanted to do was quickly pay and grab that ticket!!! Seriously so damn excited and happy ok from RM 2K++ to RM 1K++!!!

Then after a while I realized. She got the wrong date. I said July and she heard June.

WTF!! in the end it still came to about RM 2K++

After confirming the dates and prices and all, I realized I did not bring my passport.

I know it's a damn stupid mistake. Who buys flight ticket without bringing their passport along right?

That's because all these while I've been buying my tickets through travel agencies which I only contacted through phone calls and they sent me the tickets by post! All I had to do was fax to them a copy of my passport.

So anyway, the lady in the travel agent place asked for my passport and she said I could just give her the number just to purchase the tickets first. I called home and asked my brother to get my passport and read the number to me. I told him where to look for my passport from. After a while, he came back and told me there's no valid passport there and there were only old passports which parts of its covers have already been snipped. I thought he was looking at the wrong place and told him to search again. he came back after a while telling me the same thing - my passport's not there.

I was speechless for a while before I hung up and told the lady I'll go back later.

I trying to think where could my passport possibly be if not there cos I remember very clearly I put all my important cards and bank books at that very place. I was hoping so much that my brother actually overlooked and the passport's actually somewhere he missed.

I started to panic. And started searching ALL my bags (in the midst of searching I found my long lost headphone which I thought was missing all these while wtf) and every corner of the bag where I could have possibly slipped my passport at.

IN VAIN!!!

Then I sat down and thought quietly what bags I have used the last time I came back from Brisbane cos that was the last time I had to use my passport. It was the black bag... I also used the green bag... it's not in both bags... I think I slipped that passport into something...

OMG.

MY Blue PLANNER!

I remembered I brought my blue planner to Melbourne with me and all my important documents were slipped inside the pocket of that Blue planner!!!

Then I started searching the WHOLE bag looking for that blue planner. I searched the same spot for almost FIVE times but to no avail!!! I was even so damn scared shitless thinking that maybe my mom had sold that planner along with other old books during spring cleaning.

By then I was tearing a little already seriously! And then my fren only made me even more panicked when he said "Hah! Lost passport very big problem la have to wait for at least 3 years before you can make one again!"

WTF I DON'T WANTTTTTT!!!!!!

Then I called Jye and asked him if he has seen my blue planner in my other room. I know I should know better but being so panicky I seriously cannot recall so many things at that moment. he said he don't think it's there and he said he'd seen it before in my car.

I marched towards my car and search everywhere. NONE.

Then I went back into the house and thought for a while. Then I took the Car keys and opened the boot. So damn a lot of rubbish stuffs ok!

I had to push the big bag of dunno-what just to look underneath and see what books are there. Dug and dug and dug...

I SAW THE FAMILIAR Blue THING!

I quickly pulled it out. Yes it's my planner. I opened the cover and see the pockets. No, there's no sign of anything red. But there's an envelope which I kept my previous flight details. I took out the enveloped and looked inside.

A rush of relief came in split second - yes, my passport's inside.

I let out a very loud sigh of relief. I walked back into my fren house and my fren imitated my sigh but with a teasing purpose.

Anyway, passport found. Money prepared. I drove to the agent again and finally made the purchase.

This time I'll make sure I fucking put back my passport to where I'm supposed to keep it when I come back. Seriously, can get heart attack lah like this.

Anyway, I'll be staying a few days lesser than last year's cos my college mate are taking exam in July and I need to be back and make sure they're ok a.k.a I'm a responsible friend ahem. You see I even had to utilize every time available to get there ASAP! I'll be flying on Sunday night. Sunday itself I have staying at my house and it's the last day of May before leave for a month. And I'll be returning on Thursday midnight cos Friday I've got to work. HAIHHHHHHH NOW I HATE WORKING!

I really wanted to stay there forever but... haih. My job is in the way and I can't just throw my job away right now. I've stopped getting allowance from dad and my job's salary is my only income. Definitely a no-no to get myself sacked though the chances of me getting sacked is quite low because the demand. I thought of just going after August, after convocation, but that'll mean I can't go holiday with Est and Jon! =(

All in all, I've concluded that as long as I get to go and get to see him and also grab the chance to go on a holiday with the guys, nothing else matters. Stay shorter period also good - can save more money on more interesting getaways =D

Looking forward to Perth and Tasmania with Est and Jon!

Ok lah stupid one thesis also not done some more want to look forward to things that's probably gonna happen in 2 months time. Haih.

Purposely put that big ticker up there just to remind me whenever I come online (and come to this website).

Night.
Peace out crews!!

Tammy Lum Phui San I Love You Don't You Know?

I love you don't you know.
My love for you is real
Look at me you'll see it show,
when we're together, I hope you can feel.

When I see you I blush,
I hear your voice and I smile.
Look in my eyes you'll see how much,
you're busy but I'll wait for a while

When you're ready to be loved call.
What I have to give, you can't be late.
I don't want to get my hopes up for a fall.
If there's any obstacle on your way to me, let go and let fate.

I had a few before I thought was right,
for I've been looking for the right one.
The few I had made me cry in the night,
if we ever get together then my job is done,

So let me love you and you'll see,
for all the things I wrote and said is true.
I had to open heart and set my feelings free.
don't you know how much I love you.

Tammy Lum Phui San You're My Everything

Far away here,
Wont stay too late,
I want to feel you,
I need to hear you,

You are the light,
Thats leading me,
To the place,
Where i find peace,
Again.....

You are the strength,
That keeps me walking,
You are the hope,
that keeps me trusting,
You are the light,
To my soul,
You are my purpose,
You are everything.

How can i stand here with you?
And not be moved by you?
You tell me how could this be,
Any better than this?

You calm the storms,
You gave me breath,
You hold me in your hands,
You wont let me fall.

You steal my heart,
You take my breath away,
Would you take me in?
Take me deeper now.....

You're all i want,
You're all i need,
Your're everything,
Everything.....

Each Early Morning I Wake Up

Each morning I wake up,
you’re the first thought on my mind.
Looking to put my arms around,
But there's nothing to find.
I realize you're not there,
and again sadness sets in.
It's a bad situation,
neither of us can win.
I miss you so badly,
the smile on your face.
The wrath of your body,
and how you radiate OUR place.
I miss the look in your eyes,
in the bright morning sun.
Think of how to make you happy,
a smile on your face tells me I've won.
As you can probably tell,
I'm not having a great day.
I keep thinking how much I miss you,
in each and every way.
Words aren't enough,
to express how I feel.
There's never a doubt,
my feelings are real.
I know that I love you,
I miss you so much.
The feelings of your kiss,
the feel of your touch.
I promise not to take for granted,
the love that we share.
I promise not to forget,
to show how much I care.
I want and need you,
as part of my life.
It’s the reason I asked you,
and want you to be my girl friend start from that day i meet you.
I miss you today,
as much as the day the day before.
You're the only one,
I want to adore.
Have I made my point,
Can you understand?
I need your love,
I want your hand.
Thinking of you,
Is all that I do.
I've told you many times,
this is nothing new.
So I'll finish this up,
Just hoping that you know.
I love you so much,
I miss you.
I Love You Tammy Lum Phui San.

2Days Of Freedom Music Festival 29-30 May 2009

2 Days of Freedom music festival is back again this time again with famous world DJs. Ferry Corsten will be lined up on Day 1, 29th May 2009 while Above & Beyond on Day 2, 30th May 2009. Markus Schulz is one of the featured DJ to perform alongside. Venue of the music festival & DJs lineups will be announced soon. Check out FREEDOM ‘09 official website for more news updates!

DJ Lineups :
Ferry Corsten - 29th May 2009
Above & Beyond - 30th May 2009