Uncle and mama inside the tv room.
see all the gamble face..when win they can laugh until nobody business.
To: girl
A new day dawns, but who cares??
Sunlight only brings thick mist anyway
I saw before dawn
the aged you from the future...
and the aged me from the future.
The morning mist covers my wrinkles
on the forehead.
The sun scorches your black hair
I've lost you completely....
Please forgive the cowardly me..
Should i call the guy Handsome,
or should i say,
Hot,
Very hot & Very rich?
At the same time,
Having billions of dollars in the bank,
Doesn’t have to worry anything about his living,
And the next generation too.
Driving all kinds of sports car,
Living in the huge castle,
Having a wonderful luxury life,
Going around the world,
Seeing all kinds of beautiful sceneries.
Besides that,
Having all the hot girls,
Sticking to him,
Trying to get his heart,
But,
That would never happen,
Because he has too many to choose.
Whatever is written above,
About the most successful guy,
Its all rubbish!
But for me the main thing to define as the most successful guy is,
Love,
Having a family.
Everyday,
After his work,
The moment he opens his door,
Seeing his family,
Sitting at the dinner table,
Waiting for daddy/husband to come home to eat.
A successful guy will always have a everlasting love,
From his wife,
And from his family.
There is no point having billions of dollar without love,
You do not have someone to share your happiness with,
Nor supporting you in your doings.
So currently I'm learning how to be a Most Successful Guy in my Future!
I'm really is an idiot! booked an Aussie flight ticket 14th APRIL instead of MARCH flight!!
Ish... whatever!! going to rebook again. so sorry until now i still didn't upload all my CNY, Pangkor and also Penang pics. Agrh just forget bout it :)
Cause currently i'm busy my paper.. but i really wish i can pass this paper to help me get back to UQ!
So bout love love things or who i going after with all the things ill put aside! what i know i really let her playing my feeling although is hurt but what can i do?? i just can be aside waiting her and keep fade.
ya she really is a nice gal and understanding gal and so on. I really appreciated she been appearing in my life.
And ya,guys I decide to move out from my elder bro house at Runcorn and ill move to Beenleigh or Brunswick Street!! :)
Cause I really need to get my new life and bout my family stuffs&parents things all my aunts and uncle will help me to solve it d! so i no need to carry so many burden. what i wish is faster done my paper get my result and back to Aussie that's it!
Yea, last Sunday i bump my Ex and her new boyfriend at Gurney Plaza near Celebrity Fitness there cause that time she just finish her work. So Michoh and me was walking around all of sudden i saw her walk out from CF. but that time she did saw me but bout of us just act don't know each other! im really happy cause she got a boyfriend and i really saw her boyfriend too.
And Emily,Lyda&Kar Wai great to meet you at Coffee Island. see i really didn't forget you guys wan le.
Hey sorry mates, bout my CNY pics and the Party in the park I'll be upload when im free!!
and also i'll telll you guys bout those funny stories and also i'll tell you guys who i bump in gurney and who i meet when i at penang last saturday and sunday!!
Cause by right now i busying my report and i have to do my revision cause still got few more days i got test!!
So i'll catch you guys up soon..and i promise i'll upload all the pics when im free..
Ciaoz..
and missing her so much!!
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I’m sorry of being so emotional
I’m sorry of being so possessive
I’m sorry that I cry for you
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you
I’m sorry for the tears you shed
I’m sorry for the damage I made
I’m sorry I’ve made you down
Sorry I hurt you so deep
I’m sorry for giving you sleepless nights
I’m sorry for yesterday quarrel
I’m sorry for your pain & agony
I’m sorry for the missing harmony
I’m sorry for my selfish love
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for my restlessness
I’m sorry for the losing grace
I’m sorry I made you mad
I’m sorry dear I making so sad and fed up
Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it’s my disgrace
I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much
I’m sorry I always miss your touch
I’m sorry of being so mad about you
I’m sorry for my every blue
I’m sorry of being so immature
I’m sorry now that can’t be cured
I’m sorry of being myself
I’m sorry that I’ve failed
I’m sorry and sorry again
I’m sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you
Should I say sorry for that too?
In the light of the sun, is there anyone? I don’t think got ANYONE there
Oh it has begun...
Oh Gavin you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... I said??(yea, I mean It)
And You don't know me, you don't even care,
I said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains...
Essential yet appealed, carry all my thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at Me… they're not going to who cry
When they see Me
I said??(I mean it)
I think I'll go to Aussie soon...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of Malaysia, I'm tired of the weather, Family and my love one
I think I'll get a SINGLE life and fly myself out to Paris...
I think I'll go to Aussie,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town (in Aussie but not in Brisbane), to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,
Aussie... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Aussie...
Where no one knows my name.
(I mean it)
By Gavz
No matter how great a guy is,
there is still nothing if he doesn’t have a warm family.
No matter how strong a guy is,
he will still break down for the person he loves.
No matter how successful a guy is,
there is still nothing if he doesn’t have a person to support him.
No matter how independent a guy is,
he will still need someone to care for him.
No matter how rich a guy is,
there is still nothing if he doesn’t have a person to buy things for.
No matter how cruel a guy is,
he will never hurt the person he loves.
No matter how proud a guy is,
there is still nothing if he doesn’t have a person to share his sad things with.
No matter how sad a guy is,
he will never drop a single tears in front of the person he loves.
No matter hard-working a guy is,
there is still nothing if he doesn’t have someone to wait for him at home.
No matter how poor a guy is,
he will always work hard for the person he loves.
No matter how lucky a guy is,
there is still nothing if he doesn’t have someone to cook a lovely meal for him.
No matter how busy a guy is,
he will always think of the person he loves.
No matter how smart a guy is,
there is still nothing if he doesn’t have a person to make full use of it with.
And Yes I'm not the guy in all the way I done!!
Cause i don't have a person giving me a Love,Care,Support and Warm Family.
What i having now is FUCK UP life's!
Woke up early in the morning, couldn't get back to sleep. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I just felt really moody, sad, a lonely and left out. I have so many friends but only couple of them are my true friends. The person I trust most and I love most, where are you? The person I share all my secrets with, where are you? My no.1 and the only girl that I love, where are you? Thousands of things are flying trough my mind, millions of question hanging in my mind. I wanna get rid all of them but I couldn't. Things aren't the way that they are suppose to be and I have to fix them back all by myself...
Yesterday is Valentine Day. But come to think of it, anything special about valentine day? I used to think that Valentine Day is a very special day for spending time with your love ones. Someone once said to me, "a couple that didn't celebrating valentine, it is like they are not loving each other enough". I used to agree to such statement, but now, not anymore. As i've grow older, explore more about how to spell 'W-O-R-L-D", understand more about the worldliness and more, then i comes to understand about love and relationship. Sometimes, in love and relationship will still back to the demand and supply curve.
Many people asked me, "How you gonna celebrate your Valentine Day?"
You know how i answered them? I said, "Valentine?? Yesterday, today and tomorrow is also Valentine Day for me. As long as I am spending time with my love ones, that is Valentine Day for me." There is no need a special day for you to celebrate your Valentine Day. To celebrate Valentine Day on 14th February every year, it's just another day of wasting double of your money. If you think that you have too much money to waste on, you can keep it with me and it might turn out to be 1% to 3% of interest in return. Why should you wasting your money on that bloody day?
It's a dream of every girl to receive flowers from the boyfriend. But I make a card for her (Hope she like it) and For me, I rather save the money up for a makan-makan or something like that. I'm too realistic... I kept thinking of saving money and spend on a more enjoyable and worth able things.
That Valentine, I spent my time with her at Soul Out, 42Below and Small Genting. I don't even treat her a good meal, flowers, movie, on that day etc. It is because we already have a nice talk on what we gonna do on Valentine Day. She understand me very much on what I want. I make her understand as well that going to be friend relationship is not everything in world. We still have a lot more time to spend together as a friend.
I have this very different experience on celebrating this Valentine Day. I feel that this Valentine for me is very very different from my past and indeed but is sweet to be with her, it is my most happy Valentine I ever had. It's full of tolerating, faithfulness, loving, kindness, understanding, and most importantly, the relationship that full of blessing. Love this Valentine so much.
Now i really getting nervous and nervous for one thing. That's my heart operation FUCKor FCUK(WHATEVER) right?
Hmmm... i know you guys will start wonder how come i'll go for the heart operation..
Cause got one day i was pain until damn freaking can't move,so mummy and Fred(Elder Bro)ask me to do body check up see what happen! so i went, the next day i going to take my report that time the doctor said got few of my heart "salur darah" was stuck and because of that the blood cannot pump to the heart there and is very hard, so that's why sometime my heart will like damn fucking pain and pain until my whole body can roll on the floor.
And doctor say all this thing happen is because i drink Alcohol and Liquor damn freaking a lot...is it?
But seriously one week i confirm i cannot miss at least 3times for my drink man.
But now during CNY the Beer,Red wine,White wine or Liquor in front of me i can't drink at all! Shit Man!! I just can see all my cousins,aunts and uncles all drink like mad. And also got one girl and she the only one asked me not to drink on this month and next month start if i wan to drink just can drink one week once and just only one cup. Erm..okay i'll keep my words to you ya! No worries.
Haiz don't talk about CNY already. My cny is totally S**K man! cannot celebrate at all but just can get Angpao from all my mother side relatives. Even thought i didn't celebrate cny but how also my house got do cny gathering and also have a cny reunion dinner with all my relatives. And this year cny almost all the time is i sleep at home for 24hrs.wakaka!!
Just only yesterday the 2nd day of the cny night i went to Bernard house and see my friends gambling and just sit at aside to see them play. And 3rd day of cny i woke up at 6pm all because of one person keep on calling me until he wake me up and ask me to go work at MOS to help them take pics. so i just say "oh...okay..please don't keep on calling me next time"(WITH MY BLUR VOICE)
After finish photo shooting at Mos around 1pm then i start to get my ass off from there and on my way to jason house for BBQ party and then heading to Azamos and play Pool with Marcus.
Anyway i hope everything will be fine for me during the operate.
Lazy wan to do update my blog already.
And i totally can't wait for the date coming 8th of Feb =)
Wowowowow...i going to enjoy my life until the max over there.
Har..Har..don't come and ask me how am i going to celebrate my Valentine's day and don't come and ask me how many roses i going to buy on that day.
For my opinion is i not going to buy any roses on that day or anythings! Cause for me is,roses is not need have to wait until 14th of Feb Valentine's day only buy for your gf. And i would be that stupid go and order roses on that day cause it will be damn freaking expensive.And for me valentine's day not need have to wait until 14th of Feb only can go celebrate. If let's say i got gf i for sure any day or everyday also can have a valentine's day with her and celebrate with her all the times. If you really love a person,i can swear to my god how many valentine's day you wan to do or you wan to celebrate also can all is depends on your heart and the love.
So far i think i'll celebrate with me,myself and I at somewhere.
Take note: Chinese New Year pictures all will upload soon!
My new life??
Ya, I'm telling how's my new life it gonna to be,
In a path of a new road,
Hoping to see the light.
Chose the path that I want,
Hopefully I wont regret.
Had to stand strong,
Alone,
Cause there is no one to support me.
Have to try my best,
So that I could have a good future,
Wont disappoint those who had hopes on me.
You called me to get out of your life,
I will.
You called me to fuck off,
I will.
I’m just a piece of blank paper,
Waiting for someone to fill in words.
This is my wish for my NEW LIFE at Aussie,
Hopefully is a good one.
Lies?
Who doesn’t?
I lie,
You lie,
Everyone lies.
Some people loves to tell lie,
Some people hates to tell lie.
Different people lie about different things,
And,
Some might even lie to get what they want.
Everyone tell lies in this world,
The only different thing is,
Rather is a good lie or bad lie.
Lying,
Does it really have to be a bad thing?
Everyone says lying is bad and its wrong,
But have you thought of why that person has to lie,
What if that person has a good reason to lie?
What if that person has an objective to lie?
Lies can bring happiness,
But at the same time,
It also brings disasters.
How about you guys?
Do you all lie?
For me,
All I can say is,
I don’t lie for nothing.
I did nothing much today,
Just spend most of my time thinking,
At the same time staring at the ceiling,
Counting the number of ants on it,
But it ended up zero,
Not even a single ant wanna be in my life.
A lonely life i have,
When i looked around,
Nobody is here,
Not even my family members,
Even the close ones were far far away,
It was really heartbreaking and depressing.
When i browse through my phone list,
There is no one i can talk to,
Got someone i can talk to that is sweet ,
But i just scare she will feel im so annoying,
Maybe its my destiny or my faith,
To be in a world of my own,
One man standing alone,
And no one wants to join,
Or should i say,
Not even interested at all.
I got myself out of bed,
Looked out of the window,
I sighed,
It was the prefect picture,
A picture of reflection of my life,
The sun was no where to be found,
The clouds were all Grey in colour,
The birds immediately flew away when they saw me,
And there is a prefect word to describe it,
Lonely.
I then turned away from the window,
Walked down to my living room,
It was gloomy and quiet,
The atmosphere took away soul,
No mood to eat,
No mood to watch tv,
No mood for everything.
A moody-looking face was brought to my bed,
Here it goes again,
Lying down and forcing myself to sleep,
But i knew i couldn't,
So i just kept my mind busy by thinking.
I'm exactly like an empty shell,
A body without a soul,
Something is not right,
Something is missing in my life,
It was incomplete.
I just wish god could just cast a spell on me,
And make my life more meaningful and happy,
Or just make me fall asleep,
And never be awake forever.
I'm currently reading this book called The Purpose Driven Life written by Rick Warren. It is a good book to read. Thanks Fred(Elder bro) for the book Every night before i sleep i'll read one chapter. =)
It's so hard to say "I love you" and not draw back in tears,
It's so hard to know that you're not there to help me face my fears.
It's so hard to know the phone's at reach, but I cannot see your face and just can hear your vioce,
It's so hard to know that this time breaking up is my choice.
It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying deep inside,
It's just so hard to find feelings and now have to make them hide.
It's so hard to live without you, when i need you more than words,
To want to scream how much I love you but hold back and not be heard.
It's so hard to sleep at night when I cannot dream of you,
It's so hard to know that you have fallen in love with someone new.
It's so hard to not start thinking you when I hear your favorite song "Always Be My Babe",
It's so hard to sit and wonder where did I go wrong?
It's so hard to live without you, if I only would have known,
I will never love another, Would I rather be alone... ?
Would I?? I need someone to guide me please!
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